I’ve sat down several times to share this with you, only to find myself staring at a big blank white screen, taking a deep breath and sighing, and walking away.
Our little girl Chloe is gone. She lost her hard fought battle to advanced kidney failure.
I don’t think I could sum up in a single blog post what these past 16 1/2 years have been like with this bright little orange spark in our lives. And what our life is going to be like without her.
Our little family of four is now a little’er family of three.
There are some days that are hard, and some that are even harder. And there are times I sit and cry in the driveway when I come home, with the realization she won’t be there to greet me anymore as I walk through the front door.
I’ve been trying to find calm and comfort in quiet, simple things.
I’ve been watching from my kitchen window as Spring’s arrival breathes new life into nature, reminding me that no matter what happens in our lives, life marches on.
The trees in our yard are blossoming at such a quick pace, the fallen tiny white petals look like California snow. It was so beautiful, I wandered out into the backyard in my pajama’s one early morning with a pair of gardening sheers and clipped several branches. I gathered them up and plunked them into one of my favorite old vessels.
I’ve also been catching up on some of my favorite reading, which I sometimes feel guilty doing. Like I should be doing something more productive with my time. But I find the photography and articles so inspiring, I tell myself it’s research.
And I’ve been crushing hard on cotton.
Anyone that knows me fairly well knows I’m a wee bit obsessed the stuff. Imagine my delight when I landed two dozen REAL cotton stems this past weekend from a fellow dealer.
So yeah, the stuff you’ve seen all around my house up till now…manufactured (fake stems).
This here is the real deal. Crunchy, flaky, billowy and fabulous…
I’ve also been clutching tightly to my chest Sibella Court’s latest book, The life of a Bowerbird.
I’ve been carrying it around with me every place I go ever since I I first met Sibella.
I’ve found it’s the near perfect antidote to chasing away the blues.
I also finished a bookshelf project that I started working on after the New Year, but only recently just completed. Sometimes I need to remind myself it’s okay to loose yourself in a project, even if it takes you a week, a month, or half a year.
This is just a little teaser. The rest I'll share with you in a future post.
We are so pleased with how it turned out.
I want to thank those folks who were concerned about my absence.
Only a few weeks before Chloe took ill, we both had our own share of (scary) sickness and doctors and scans and tests. Thankfully, gratefully, we are doing okay now.
I want to ask a small favor: After you’re done reading this post, please go hug someone you care about and let them know how you feel. Sometimes it takes a wake up call to make you realize what a brief and precious gift life really is.
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